I've e-mailed back and forth with 3 moms of waiting children today; all of them fresh from surgery or treatment. it made me think of one of my favorite "mother" quotes, because becoming a mom has made me identify with this quote in such a visceral way.
"Becoming a mother is like choosing to walk around for the rest of your life
carrying your heart outside of your body"
---unknown (to me)
This took on new meaning watching my baby fall under the spell of anesthesia--knowing she did so, trusting me to make good decisions for her; and watching her wake up in complete panic mode. It was so, so hard. I did what I had to do as a mommy, but cried and threw up, and begged God for her comfort; and then picked up my heart, fluffed it up and went about the business of being Amelia's mom.
Thanks be to God for making me Amelia's mom :)
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Not that you care, but can you believe that quote came from Heather Locklear? :) Just thought I'd share.
I so understand how you feel. We have adopted 2 boys from Korea and we had them both circumcised. I can remember with our first one sitting in the waiting room before and saying to my husband, "I can not do this to him". He woke up scared and screaming and I cried harder then him. He is now 13 and still loves me (most days:) and when he doesn't it has nothing to do with that:)
Hope Amelia is doing well, she is a beautiful little girl!!!!
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