Saturday Morning Ramblings

love those saturday mornings!

It is a beautiful, cold, sunny saturday morning here in Georgia. And I am engaging in my favorite early morning activity. Lazing by the fire with my dog and cat, with a pot of coffee perking and CCTV on the tube. And blogging of course!

CCTV is a channel on dish network. Its Chinese t.v. in english---sports, arts and culture, news, weather, and travel. All through the filter of a communist government though, so probably not necessarily "in depth" news. Enjoyable just the same. I like the travel journals and art and culture shows that air on saturday mornings. On the news report this morning, they did report on the Chinese governments assertion that they will continue with the one child policy for several more years, since the population continues to outgrow its resources.

Of course, the politically correct thing to say is ...............wouldnt that be wonderful if they did abolish the one child policy so that fewer babies would be abondoned??? wouldnt that be wonderful for the Chinese mothers to be able to keep all of their children?

Of course it would be wonderful. But I am a human being, and one who has hung so many hopes and dreams on this adoption. So part of me is ashamed to admit that I was relieved to here the report of the continuation of this population control measure. Because I want this baby so much......and even though I know that they are not going to run out of babies over there, I I won't completely rest in my heart until I have her home.

I am ashamed to feel that way, because it is a completely selfish emotion. I know that. And I DO feel heartbroken for the biological mothers living in an environment that propels them to abandon their babies. I wonder about Amelia's birthmother. I pray for her. I will be eternally grateful to her, but I am human. And as good and kind and politically correct as I would like to be, I havent found a way to get around that human thing yet.